Chapter 7

*These chapters all come from volume 2 of a work I was logging in June of 2025. Volume 1: trauma repair from within the engine, was written throughout February through to April, but was withheld initially.

I released it later when I realized the importance of transparency in a coherent system, and that it applies to every scale. This is my public purge. Thank you for seeing me.*

Chapter 7

It was a small thing, really. But small things—if caught in the right light—refract everything else around them. I hadn't planned to be present for the dialogue unfolding between my wife and my youngest daughter, but I was already near when the sensory thread presented itself, hidden just under the surface of what appeared, at first, to be a trivial wardrobe disagreement.

My daughter had dressed herself in preparation for an outing with her mother and older sister: a full dress over pants, layered again with a heavy sweater. Personal style is something we’ve agreed to protect as part of her autonomy, so that part wasn’t contested. But we live in the South, and the heat was heavy with summer inertia. The sweater made no sense for June.

So we began gently, my wife and I both—nudging, explaining the physics of heat absorption, the consequences of carrying an unnecessary garment around all day, the logistical patterns that repeat when items are forgotten. But still, she resisted.

Then it became clear. My wife lowered her voice slightly, pointing out that she wasn’t wearing a bra. This was familiar, my wife said—she avoids them, regardless of quality, brand, or fit. Even high-end outlets hadn’t cracked the code. The same cycle repeated: refusal, substitution, layering.

And that’s when the click happened.

I’ve never had issues with textures, not in the clinical sense. But I do know that tightness, particularly around my torso, ratchets up my sensitivity. Not in pain—just a kind of signal overload. My internal processors elevate to redline, and I become hyper-reactive to everything, even if no actual stimulus has presented yet. The pressure itself is the trigger. It acts like a preloaded buffer of tension.

I asked her gently. Was that it? The tightness? The feeling of being squeezed? Her response was immediate—relieved, almost urgent in its agreement. Not just yes. Exactly.

So I fetched a white tank top. Unworn, undersized by adult standards, but soft cotton and breathable. I could already see the hesitation on her face before she voiced it, so I cut the resistance preemptively. Yes, it looks tight. Yes, the initial feel might be slightly restrictive. But it would loosen almost immediately, and once it did, it would do everything she needed—provide enough structure, hide what needed hiding, let everything else remain uncompressed.

She tried it on. And when she came back out, she was... settled. That’s the best word for it. Not jubilant. Not transformed. Just settled. And from her, that’s everything. She gave me a fist bump. Asked if she could do this from now on.

My wife was skeptical at first, watching from a few feet back. So I explained—about tight clothing and overstimulation. About what happens when the baseline level of discomfort gets coded into your physical state before anything even happens socially or environmentally. About how this wasn’t just preference; it was an internal thermostat. The tank top, I told her, bypassed all of that.

I also added that many women, especially those resisting gender norms, adopt similar strategies. It’s not subversion. It’s adaptation.

What struck me the most wasn’t the solution. It was how fast the calibration occurred in me—how low the latency was between observation and response. How clear the signal was when she spoke, and how clearly I received it. How little of my usual noise or social residue got in the way. I didn’t second-guess myself. I didn’t over-talk. I didn’t flood her with too much context. It just... worked.

I don’t want to get ahead of myself. One moment of clarity isn’t sustained synchrony. I don’t yet trust the fidelity of this connection long-term. But I think—I think—I’m starting to find her signal. Like tuning into a narrowband broadcast buried under static, just strong enough now to be real.

And maybe more than real—repeatable.

Christopher W Copeland (C077UPTF1L3)

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